i have been thinking quite some time about this...
and finally i decided
its certain... i am going to buy a digital piano

(not a keyboard, a keyboard is a lot cheaper and can be used easier when i combine it with flstudio... but it is not made for real classical piano playing...
a digital piano is a combination of a keyboard and a piano... which makes it more like a piano while it has the options of a keyboard too)

things i have done already to make sure what i want:
went to a music store
checked pianos, keyboard and digital pianos online
decided which of the 3 would be the best to buy in my situation (digital piano)
tried to compose some piano songs
learned the basics of reading notes
tested out a program for creating sheets
checked out some piano songs on newgrounds and piano music elsewhere
checked out some online music lessons to get a idea what i can learn (even though i wont follow those online lessons when i have my piano...)

things i will do:
check out which digital piano to buy
buy a digital piano
take private piano lessons
practice a lot
compose piano music
play my own composed music live
upload the songs i created
make sheets of my songs to spread my love for music
look for great piano songs to learn
ask some newgrounds piano composers if i may have sheets or something so i can play their songs

hope you like piano music...
because you can at least expect that 90% of all my future songs are piano songs or have at least piano mixed in them

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sometimes i delete some old projects/demos i dont like anymore...
tip...
download everything you like from me before i delete them
if you like one enough to want to make it stay on newgrounds... favorite and review it
because popular songs and projects i like have an extremely low chance of being deleted in the future
and if you are a flash artist or promote one to use a song of mine in his/her flash... then i wont delete it at all